
A good friend of mine came out to his mother the other day. And it wasn't pretty.
Telling your mom and dad you're gay can be painful in the best of circumstances -- all parents construct fantastical notions about who and what their little boys and girls will be when they grow up. And then in a few seconds the words "I'm gay" change all that forever. Parents are wrenched into a period of mourning and shame, imagining their child will die of AIDS or that their son or daughter will never have kids and families of their own or -- more selfishly -- grandchildren for them to dote on, or that they'll be ostracized by their friends and community. None of this is necessarily true, but coming out to one's family is above all an emotional, not rational, experience -- and in these circumstances, it's often our primitive, fear-based cores that take over (at least for a few days, months or years) until hopefully we reason that the son we loved before is still fundamentally the same son that stands before us now, except for who sleeps in his bed and who he ultimately chooses to love.
Now layer on top of this emotional coming out experience, as my friend did earlier this week, religion -- in his case, Islam. He is devout, as are his parents, and he has wrestled for some time with how to reconcile his innate attraction to men with what his religion (and most religions) literally tells him: homosexuality is sinful, lewd, shameful, illegal, haraam, even punishable by death. It doesn't matter how pure your heart is toward your fellow man. It doesn't matter how much good you've done in the world. All that is cast aside by an act that doesn't hurt anyone except, fundamentalists would say, God.
Speaking with my friend before he came out to his mother, I thought I'd found a loophole in this logic -- as if there is any logic in religious belief to start with. But I put aside my cynicism about faith because I understand that religion is important to many people, including my friend. I told him: "ask them, if God is all-powerful and created you, then surely he created you this way and if that's the case, how can being gay be a sin? Surely God is not such a sadist that he would create us a certain way then condemn us for it?" (I forgot, of course, that the god of Jews, Christians and Muslims has done this sort of thing before. After all he put the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil in the Garden of Eden then punished his creation for eating its fruit. But I digress.)
Alas, I always seem to underestimate the lengths to which religion and fundamentalists will go to justify their literal belief in texts that would clearly be deemed illogical in any other context. His mother's response was that, no, God didn't create him this way. He is possessed by the Devil.
Well, how can you argue with that?
No, really. How?
You can't of course because religion, like any unreasoned and unreasonable ideology, is not about arguing or thinking or questioning. It's about accepting. It's about submitting to someone's interpretation of texts that were written when people believed spirits were ejected out of your mouth when you sneezed and lightning and thunder were signs of a deity's dissatisfaction with the mundane acts of his creation.
Most of us understand when we go in for surgery that the single most important thing to be concerned about is the competence of the doctors operating on us. It is not whether you gave sadaka or confessed to your priest or read your horoscope that week.
It simply is not.
In the 21st century, we understand how disease works, how medicine works, how evolution works, how the tides work, how the earth revolved around the sun. We even have a pretty good handle on the workings of the mind. We understand these things because we have used reason to develop theories, we have tested hypotheses and confirmed the results.
Most of us, any way. Unfortunately for some, gods still tell them, mostly innocuously, to wear this hat or that veil or that dagger, or less so, that devils make us gay. And that, in the end, may be the worst part in all this. That instead of allowing a parent to do what might come naturally after the pain subsides, instead of being supportive and understanding when a child they love exposes a little bit more of his humanity to them, they cling to superstition and primitive notions of gods and devils and sin that are reckless, damaging, hurtful and utterly wrong.
That's not just fundamentally unreasonable. It's tragic.
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